6-26-19
5-27-19 I don’t know if it’s the subconscious insecure thoughts, lack of ability to comfortably make eye contact, blah blah fucking blah but today wasn’t the way I wanted it to go. Keep in mind I’m killing it right now in game. Smashing hot girls from online & pretty much closing out every single date. I fucked a girl 2 days ago & all I did was roll my window down at the stop light & tell her “give me your number”. My text game has SIGNIFICANTLY improved & I’m destroying most leads. Which brings me to the confusion: how is it that night game is so bad? Every set for the most part flopped, but here is what stuck out: HBmarried: solid 9. I’m actually gaming pretty well until I flop on setting up the day 2. You know: you’re talking, but the person can tell you’re thinking about how you’re going to say it, what you’re going to say. Maybe you stutter or fumble but the point is: it’s not flowing. You’re in your head last minute. She showed me her ring, & was legitimately married. I don’t fuck with married women, & I know most likely if you’re at a night club on a week day while your husband isn’t there: its not always a good sign. HBtinder: I stopped responding to this girl because she just looks....meh.....but when I went out downtown & I saw her in person.... holy fuck....how could a girl look so much better in person & dogshit online. Now in all fairness from the photo attached I would get the impression that she’s 6.5/7. In person solid 8 maybe 8.5. I approach her and ask her “do you know who I am” (we’ve never met in person). She tells me “you don’t look your photos. You look Spanish in your photos, & in person you look white. Sorry I don’t really like white guys”. I know this is bullshit from the way her eyes lit up when I approached her, but at the same time I don’t really give a fuck so I act super dramatically hurt in a funny way & I hug her good bye. I see her later at another club (while I’m working). I pull her to the side & makeout. She wants to see me tomorrow (which is today) & I say OK. Keep in mind she is drunk. I texted her this morning. SEE PIC ATTACHED. I’m not going to follow up with “hey are we still on for tonight?”. I’m just going to coast, see if she mentions it, & if not I can d2 tomorrow or Saturday. I’m already fucking 2 rotation girls today & trying to go out at night so no rush. So all in all, every set that night was an immediate rejection. I need to work on nonverbals & some self-esteem bullshit. Keep in mind, I know I fucking got this. You can’t consistently fuck new hot girls and have self-doubt. I don’t doubt myself now, I just need to figure out the solution for night game interactions. -X
