LR/FR - 1st Onlyfans Girl, Shower Sex, & My Retention Dilemma

App: We matched on Facebook Dating. Now this girl definitely was giving me entitled vibes from her texting. She was also coming off as bratty. Which is interesting, because she was anything but in person. She was asking about how tall I was, she only wanted to meet my dog and not me, etc. I did screen her and she told me that she was just looking for “literally just friends and fun” so the DTF light was blinking in my head & I sexualized. The soft close was a bit too soon but I figure she was a short and succinct kind of texter and anymore build up wouldn’t really accomplish much.

Text: We move to text and she hit me with a shit test when I told her to save my name with a fire emoji next to it that Pabs helped me with. All in all it was short & sweet. However, when it came to confirming the date day of and I sent her my address the objections started to roll in since I was staying at a hotel. I thought I handled it best I could consider I’m in the process of trying to find a place out here in AZ with this new job and don’t have one of my own.

I learned that if you have a hotel and you’re inviting a girl.. she will not want to feel like an escort if it’s already more or less on the table that you two are going to be hooking up and will hence object. It was getting weird over text when it came to nearing time for us to meet that night. Almost like I couldn’t tell if it was still on or not. She objected to not having sex after playing dumb asking what we’d be doing. When she asked if I just wanted to drink, I was stuck. Cause in my head I thought if I just said that she’d backpedal and want to meet at a bar nearby instead. Either way it wasn’t going to go down that night. I re-engaged a few days later today and she was down to meet so it was set for tonight.

The texts leading up to meeting were feeling like I was skating on thin ice. I was definitely in a scarcity mindset. When she asked me for my IG, that would’ve swung one of two ways but she bought the text I sent. & Then she asked who I live with. Thankfully had the text Alex mentioned from his “Objections & Concerns” vid saved in my phone. So that was alleviated. Now what got REALLY weird was she asked if she was spending the night. This is where that hit me like a curveball. I was like shit okay, so she’s down as fuck. Had Erik come in clutch here. & THEN even asked what I wanted her to wear. When Erik suggested the lingerie text we were under the impression she just wanted me to lead the way. Either way all was saved and she was on her way. I was nervous leading up to her getting there. I don’t have that much experience with brats. Had a homie call with Joey and that was good

Date: I go outside to greet her. She told me how she didn’t know what to wear and that if I just wanted to have sex I could’ve just told her. I pivoted the fuck out of that and moved to asking what part of town she came from because I didn’t know how to answer that. I lead her in and asked how she hadn’t had wine before & she told me she never tried it. I also told her I had a couple of Whiteclaws left over in my fridge from a dinner party I hosted the other night (BS DHV) since she mentioned over text she prefers beer and Whiteclaws. I don’t know if that was a bad move. In my head I didn’t want to not have that and then her not like the wine I had there since that happened to me once and the chick didn’t drink at all.

She sits next to me on the bed and then gets up to sit on the chair across (Bad mistake having that in the room there) & She told me she just wants to “Get to know me” She also called me out on my height. She was like “You’re not 6ft!” I was like “Yes I am” She’s like “No you’re not” then I said “Yes I am. I just got measured for my cousin’s wedding this past week” she then wanted to see & then fell into my frame and dropped it. She also was hitting me HARD with the serial killer objection. On several occasions. I don’t get how you handle that in person instead of text that actually puts them at ease?

She goes on and tells me that she doesn’t work right now but that she was in Miami partying with Bad Bunny and that she use to do Onlyfans but stopped because she didn’t want her life headed that way. She also told me she models. I pre-selected and made some BS DHV about having an ex who was a model and that she hated having to stick to her petite measurements. She said she was having sex with two guys for her vids and that they wanted part of the money she was making and that she deleted it and stopped. I know she’s telling the truth cause her IG doesn’t advertise OF. I then told her another BS DHV about doing collaborations with other content creators on Onlyfans and that I don’t judge girls or think it’s dumb that girls get judged for doing it as long as they can live the lifestyle they want I think it’s fucking sexy when a girl is open-minded and sexually adventurous.

She then asked me if I wanted to watch TV and I told her I was enjoying our conversation instead. She moved to the bed and laid down with her ass up in the air, and I told her to come to the end of the bed where I was. She cuddled next to me and I asked her about her past relationship, love languages, and biggest turn on. When I asked her what her biggest turn on was she fucking told me a “guy who doesn’t want her” & I think she said how she’s use to it or something. Now after we talked about her kinks and what she was into, it got interesting. She escalated on ME. She pulled me in for the makeout and it was on. She kept pulling my head next to her neck, she seemed to enjoy my neck kisses. Then she stops me and tells me that she didn’t think we were going to have sex, but that she’s on her period. & Then asked if I wanted to have shower sex. I think I mentioned how the red fairy doesn’t bother me, it’s not a big deal.

We go to the shower & I start getting the water ready but for some reason the hot water isn’t working & it was taking me a while to get it fucking going cause their were two handles. She got naked and came in with me and blew me. Then had me sit down so she could bounce on my dick. When I say she “had me” this girl was almost like wanting to lead, which may have been bad. It caught me off guard cause I was about what she was talking about. She sits on my dick and starts bouncing on me, but my dick keeps popping out. It was hard to find a rhythm but we managed and it felt hot. Now at one point she puts her underwear back on. & I was like huh? & She told me she sort of feels “over it” cause the water is not hot and shit. Then the water heats up and I lay down and she rides me cowgirl. On one point she turns the water off before she goes back to riding me cowgirl. She then asked if I wanted to go to the bed

She bends over the bed & I’m fucking her doggy. & Then at one point she tells me to stop and just “let her do it” as she bounced her ass on me. At this point I started to lose my boner and then she went to the restroom to wash off. She then comes out and she’s dressed and told me she thinks she’s gonna head out. I was super confused and taken aback.

This girl asked about staying the night earlier.. now she wants to go. Either she didn’t

1. Think I didn’t bust and felt rejected (Even though I told her after she had decided to leave I did)
2. Sex wasn’t amazing and now she wanted to go. Lack of aggressive dominance
3. She’s use to being kicked out
4. She was just looking for a one night stand

What do you guys think Joey Casey Maximilian

I knew just by her body language and demeanor their was something up but she said it was nothing and that she’s fine. I risked being needy and asking her if it was because I didn’t bust when I did just because at that moment I could tell my chances of seeing her again were slim to none. She said she thought we were going to watch tv earlier and drink more but we didn’t? Because I guess she was feeling the alcohol in her system. But this is only the second occasion I’ve ever had a girl try to bounce super quick post sex. First time was a girl who was triggered because the condom broke and she had a case of not being able to have kids.

When I walked her out she gave me a weak ass side hug and said it was nice meeting me, I felt rejected as fuck. Like even though I got the lay, I felt sort of crushed. Cause I thought the chick was cool and actually didn’t mind spending more time with her. Erik gave me some pointers. He thinks part of it could be that she’s just use to being kicked out.

All in all this was a win but still a loss because of how the night ended. I would’ve love to retain this girl. Also I noticed I’ve been cumming more sooner then usual lately during sex. Not sure why. I really want a rotation to the point of starting to build up day game, night game, etc but at the same time feel exhausted from having to constantly constantly aggressively run leads just to get lays and filter through to get those girls. Maybe I’m just being a bitch and it’s just nature of game? Like I look back at this year and I retained a couple of girls for a decent amount of time & then theirs probably couple that I really liked that I didn’t get to. I know my game needs work too. Gonna start taking BDSM or Kink classes recommended by Casey cause I need a sex sequence with these chicks and still feel clueless with going from A to Z. This shit is all overwhelming man. & I don’t like that I get horny almost on the reg with raging testosterone and want to have sex all the time. It just ain’t healthy. But at the same time I don’t feel like I’m deserving of rotation because I’m still not 100% put together as a high value dude? Like I’m still developing areas of my life. But at the same time I see 6ft 11 raccoons who dress like trash walking with stunners. Just a lot. Also have to work on my vocal expressiveness. I’m good at turning on my Prince seductive talk but I guess I have robotic tendencies