LR - The end of a 5 year dry spell

LR - The end of a 5 year dry spell

First big win from deep fake 2.0 last night. This one was 3 weeks in the making & took me 2 dates to close. Young, curious, inexperienced, kinky 20 yr old.

Before I get started I’m sure some of you are thinking to yourselves “5 years? How the fuck is that possible” “Carlos, you sing, dance. You’re a good looking dude!” It’s a lot of things

My inner game being my biggest. Being my worse enemy, self-sabatoge, plummeting self-esteem, getting in my head, & an ongoing addiction to pornography (Which I can say has stopped as of recent. Haven’t watched or jerked off in weeks now) Overtime, their probably has been a handful of opportunities & fuck-ups that were presented to me but I wasn’t able to necessarily capitalize on them fully due to my lack of knowledge w/game. I’ve also probably drove Alex to the point of wanting to strangle me through our conversations back in Miami. But today, I write this feeling a bit liberated. A free bird, finally getting this monkey off my back

Tinder: All of the texting you see here I did on my own, with a little bit of help from Nitin here & there during the sexualizing parts. I think I did decent. I honestly was surprised this one turned out the way it did. The girl super likes me on Tinder & I open her with the infamous “Hey trouble” At one point she asks me what my Snap or phone number is & I respond by explicitly screening “Well first, what are you looking for on here” I find this to be useful in situations like this. It almost leads the girl to believe you’re gonna give them what they’re asking for, but you want more info before you do. Move her to text

Texting: I had just left out of town for 2 weeks for bartending school so that’s why their was a lot of time spent texting. This girl was very very hooked from the beginning. She would apologize if she didn’t respond soon enough, double/triple text me at one point, text me “I’m horny” at times (I give myself props for not getting overeager in these instances) & even used a takeaway on me one time which was hilarious. She was like “Are you always this busy? :(“ She would get quite needy too. I had to overcome a couple of obstacles w/her. 1 being the FaceTime, 2 her insistence on seeing more pics once we got into sexting. I used the infamous Jeff Powell routine when it came to her “I’m horny” texts second time around, which orked like a charm

One thing I’ve found to be good when you finish a FaceTime is to send a text “We have a good vibe going on” that I got from Nitin

Date 1 : Finally the day comes for us to meet & we do. She’s cool, short, & sweet. Her energy was very open with me from the moment we met so this didn’t throw my energy off. I poured us a glass of wine & share it together. Just normal banter. This girl was very much DTF largely due to the heavy amounts of sexualizing over text. At one point she points out that she sees the Hitachi & handcuffs on my nightstand & said how she was surprised I was actually being honest about that & that a lot of guys are just all talk. I think that’s part of the reason she liked me. One thing leads to another & we basically went the whole nine yards. Make out, pussy eating, blowing me, titty sucking, etc. Everything except sex because I couldn’t get hard. I just owned it & said it was because stress, work. She was cool about it. It could’ve been a number of things. Anxiety or my dopamine receptors being fucked. Either way, she was cool. This girl was definitely the kind that like filthy, dirty, slut sex. She came to my place wearing no underwear just her joggers once I got them off & a sports bra.

After she leaves she was still wanted to see me again, & even offers to bring me bread from her job the next day cause she works at one of my fav restaurants in the city the next day so I knew it wasn’t a complete done deal. I was gonna go to La to visit some friends for the week, so bridging the gap between then & when we’d meet through the texting I was sort of stuck on but managed to turn out okay. At one point it got close to potential sexting but I didn’t want to just because I didn’t want to be overwhelmed with this standard I’d have to live up to when we met up again through sexting after not being able to get hard on meet 1. Alex V came in clutch & helped me get out of there thankfully

Leading up to meeting up again I get checked in to the Urgent Care cause of the dick issue. I didn’t want to have to meet this chick again & get fucked because I couldn’t get hard, plus I was suppose to see someone else that weekend too. They gave me a low dose of Sildenafil. Which I believe is just a form of Viagara, which didn’t end up really working tbh. I took probably 1 dose night of & wasn’t hard as a rock the whole night through, so took another & was just hard enough to bang. I probably will refrain from taking it, since most of my issues are psychological rather then physical

Date II: She comes over & it’s the same sort of thing. At one point she wants to see my swimming pool & I show her. She says that I should invite her over in the summertime so she can tan... naked of course (That’s legit how she finishes the sentence) We then make out & then lead her back to my room. I offer her a massage. Which wasn’t amazing Imo, but she said she liked it. I don’t give massages on the reg guys. Soon enough the gloves are off & we’re right close but I start fumbling w/getting condom on. By the time I get it on, I go soft. Extremely frustrating. Soon enough it picks back up & I just decide to go in raw. Surprisingly, I didn’t bust at all for whatever reason & lasted long. Her pussy wasn’t soaking wet though when I fucked her. Which means I didn’t make her horny enough? Not sure.

One thing that did happen was she asked me if I had lube a few times to use on herself. She asked me if I had lube so she could use & she said because she was “nervous” I asked her what she was nervous about & she laughed & said “I don’t know” I just said “Don’t be” best I could come up with in that moment. She had just gotten off her period that day so idk if that makes any difference. I sort of forgot to finger her even though I made my attempts at eating her out. One thing she had also told me leading up to sex was that she has to bring herself to cum, that it’s an annoying thing. Cowgirl, doggy w/my handcuffs on her, missionary. I would give my sex game a C+/B- for someone who’s been out of business 5 years

We had sex all through the night, mainly as “Blinding Lights” & “In Your Eyes” By The Weekend played on my I-pod on repeat. Then to the “24K Magic” album By Bruno & “Thriller” By Michael. What can I say, I’m a man of exquisite taste. I used my Hitachi on her & she lost her mind. Couldn’t control herself, & I think she enjoyed that. Good recommendation Alex gave me when I was in Miami. Pillowtalk follows after & I asked what her biggest sexual fantasy is & she tells me she’s very much into the 50 Shades Of Grey shit, which I knew already. We cuddled, kissed goodbye, & I sent her on her merry way.

All in all this girl I’ll more then likely see again. I enjoyed her company